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SobrietyWoD Thought of the Day 12/27/17 Entropy

Basically, the law of entropy says that everything tends to go to shit unless you put energy into it. Alcoholism is a condition of spiritual entropy. Untreated, we get worse, never better. It’s like quicksand. Not only will getting out of it take work, but staying out...

SobrietyWoD Though of the Day 12/26/17 Unregrettable

Since getting sober, I have never looked back on a particular period of difficulty I have made it through without using and said, “Man I wish I would’ve gotten drunk.” I have never regretted choosing sobriety. Very similarly, I have never made the statement, “Man, I...

SobrietyWoD Thought of the Day 12/24/17 Uselessness

Few feelings are as hollowing as a deep sense of uselessness. That feeling of uselessness, while often initially combatted with an inefficient and poorly choreographed attempt at egotistic self edification, typically evolves into a debilitating morass of self pity....

Chasing Cheese

I found CF as a 280lb alcoholic, deadbeat dad, with no vehicle, two failed marriages, a home in foreclosure, 3DUI’s, a herniated disc, and on the verge of liver failure. Damn, it sounds bad when I say it like that. I got this way from trying to make life work. Trying...

Ring Dips and the Bottom

I found out about CrossFit in 2011 from a high school friend, who had recently returned from Iraq. He spoke of a workout program that was actually able to whoop a US Marine’s ass. (Yes, unbridled cockiness is one of the things that make Marines so good at what they...

It Never Occurred to Us

  “It never occurred to us that we needed to change ourselves to meet conditions” p.47 12x12 Me change? F*ck that. The world should bend to me. I should get what I want out of life because of all that I’ve had to go through. People should judge me based on my...

Instincts on Rampage

  “Instincts on rampage balk at investigation.” p.44 12x12 Instincts are powerful. And they are activated by fear. Even the most docile, domesticated animal will turn demonic once cornered and threatened. The instinct for survival is so deeply wired within us it...